I'm too big of a control freak to give alcohol control of my mind or behavior.
The first time I went to a gay bar, I ordered a screwdriver and drank it between dances. When it was gone, I ordered another one. Halfway through that second one, I could tell that I didn't feel exactly as I had before. I put it down unfinished and never had more than one drink in a day after that.
Eventually, I realized that I like my fruit juices better when they're unfermented, and I don't have to drink alcohol to prove that I'm a grown-up. So I drink my orange juice or grape juice or carrot juice or cranberry juice with nothing in it, and that suits me best.
When I was in my early 20's and doing Janet in a Rocky Horror group, the woman who did Columbia was a friend of mine. I was out to her about being gay, and it was clear that this made her slightly uncomfortable. When she was sober, she was careful to walk with a little more distance than usual between us, so that people who knew her wouldn't get the wrong idea. When she was drunk, she would hang on me and tell me she loved me.
I've had a horror of drinking and drunk people ever since.
I've had a horror of drinking and drunk people ever since.
I can relate, completely.
Once in college, I was fooling around with a pretty redhaired boy at a party (I think it was the first time I had had alcohol, actually), and his girlfriend came in. She was really drunk and said she wanted to join us. The next morning, she was horrified and threw me out of her bed. Since then, I would never drink and play or play with anyone while they're drunk.
I'm fine with "tipsy." I don't get drunk except by accident.
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Date: 2006-11-30 06:29 pm (UTC)The first time I went to a gay bar, I ordered a screwdriver and drank it between dances. When it was gone, I ordered another one. Halfway through that second one, I could tell that I didn't feel exactly as I had before. I put it down unfinished and never had more than one drink in a day after that.
Eventually, I realized that I like my fruit juices better when they're unfermented, and I don't have to drink alcohol to prove that I'm a grown-up. So I drink my orange juice or grape juice or carrot juice or cranberry juice with nothing in it, and that suits me best.
When I was in my early 20's and doing Janet in a Rocky Horror group, the woman who did Columbia was a friend of mine. I was out to her about being gay, and it was clear that this made her slightly uncomfortable. When she was sober, she was careful to walk with a little more distance than usual between us, so that people who knew her wouldn't get the wrong idea. When she was drunk, she would hang on me and tell me she loved me.
I've had a horror of drinking and drunk people ever since.
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Date: 2006-11-30 09:00 pm (UTC)I can relate, completely.
Once in college, I was fooling around with a pretty redhaired boy at a party (I think it was the first time I had had alcohol, actually), and his girlfriend came in. She was really drunk and said she wanted to join us. The next morning, she was horrified and threw me out of her bed. Since then, I would never drink and play or play with anyone while they're drunk.
I'm fine with "tipsy." I don't get drunk except by accident.