me and sociality
Jun. 22nd, 2005 09:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
snugglekittyLast night I spent about an hour at the Diesel before I decided it was time to go.
I went to give![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lovelyblackrose a hug and a kiss before I left. "You're leaving already?" she said. I nodded. "Why?" I said, "I don't know - I just want to go home." She looked sad. I shrugged, and left.
I certainly wasn't leaving for lack of pretty girls to cuddle with. First her, and thennchanter, both of whom I feel warm and flirty about. I was getting a lot of touch and attention, which I really needed.
But recently I just haven't been feeling the large group thing that much. If there are more than ten people around, after about an hour I start to go "Enh... I could be home knitting right now."
I think it might be that I've been spending a lot of time working, and a lot of time socializing recently. If there's anything that feels lacking at the moment, it's time to myself, so that's always on my mind right now, in the same way that when you're not getting enough sex, it's all you can think about.
Unfortunately, this means that I wind up not seeing a lot of people that I would like to see, or only getting to see people for a short while before disappearing.
It's not about you, folks! It's about really needing to recharge, which for me, is time alone. I wish I could do that more effectively right now - even my time alone doesn't seem to really be recharging me. I think I need to get even more into a mindset of "what do I want to do today?" rather than focusing on what I think I should be doing.
I feel very blah. I think I might want to go lie down some more, or eat breakfast.
I went to give
lovelyblackrose a hug and a kiss before I left. "You're leaving already?" she said. I nodded. "Why?" I said, "I don't know - I just want to go home." She looked sad. I shrugged, and left.I certainly wasn't leaving for lack of pretty girls to cuddle with. First her, and then
nchanter, both of whom I feel warm and flirty about. I was getting a lot of touch and attention, which I really needed.But recently I just haven't been feeling the large group thing that much. If there are more than ten people around, after about an hour I start to go "Enh... I could be home knitting right now."
I think it might be that I've been spending a lot of time working, and a lot of time socializing recently. If there's anything that feels lacking at the moment, it's time to myself, so that's always on my mind right now, in the same way that when you're not getting enough sex, it's all you can think about.
Unfortunately, this means that I wind up not seeing a lot of people that I would like to see, or only getting to see people for a short while before disappearing.
It's not about you, folks! It's about really needing to recharge, which for me, is time alone. I wish I could do that more effectively right now - even my time alone doesn't seem to really be recharging me. I think I need to get even more into a mindset of "what do I want to do today?" rather than focusing on what I think I should be doing.
I feel very blah. I think I might want to go lie down some more, or eat breakfast.
